I don't know what got into me. I'm not at school and these are the last days before tests.. If I fail the test, I'll have NO courses done at all. And here I am. Sitting in front of the computer, loading music and being bored. I didn't even go to my therapy today - maybe that's the reason what makes going to school so difficult to even think about. ...Goddamn I'm laaaazy.

Yeah, my diet. Started on monday and ended tuesday, just because my mom brought me tons of... candy. And chocolate. And the cabbage-onion-tomato -soup wasn't too good either. I still could eat the rest of it and stop this candy-eating hell I've fallen to again. I just don't know what it is, I can eat and eat and eat and I'm never full. No control at all -_-

I did do one thing today. I went to gynecologist. I was scared before she called me in. I usually am, whatever doctor it is I'm going to see. So I sent some textmessages to friends.. But she was nice enough. I just am stupid with this hormone-thing. I don't want them, expect that now I do want them, now I don't, I don't know. :D She at least listened to me and now I'm just trying these pills. Now I can fix my menstrual circle the way I like, up to like ~70 days circle. O_o Hell yeah!! Hopefully with no side-effects.